I need some advice regarding a job I have been offered.
To give some context, I have been job searching for a few months and found recently that my job search was getting some traction with decent jobs getting to interview stage etc. I've had a couple of interviews where I've then been invited to second stage but I have turned them down if the fit isn't quite right as I really want to make sure this job is the right move for me and don't want to get in to the position of being offered a role if I don't feel it's right. I have also been offered a job role a few weeks ago that I turned down as I didn't feel it was quite right for me (and subsequently felt terrible about just because that is the type of person I am - over sensitive! ). Basically I really need to be sure where I am going is the right place for me and will be good for me long term. In the last few weeks I had 2 interviews with a company I thought I really liked. I had my final interview and didn't hear back for nearly 2 weeks (with recruiter checking in a couple of times to check my 'circumstances hadn't changed') and I was surprised to hear yesterday that they would like to offer me the job and with a really good package. So far so good but in the meantime I had a really great first interview elsewhere and have since been invited to second interview and I feel like this would be the one for me (if I were to get it) as I totally clicked with the manager and also it is in a bigger company with a bit more support - i.e I wouldn't be solely responsible for my particular deparment. Also I do have slight 'imposter syndrome' and the first job role is in a small almost startup company and I would be the only person in my particular department. Basically I am a bit worried that I might not live up to expectations if I accept even thought I have been totally honest with my experience and accomplishments (no embellishment). The package they have offered is really generous and it could potentially be a really good move for me but I have to be confident in myself and my abilities.
The second interview for the other company is next Monday and I need to decide by tomorrow what to do about the offer on the table. I feel really terrible about accepting a job and then potentially changing my mind if I get offered the other job and literally dread the thought of phoning the recruiter to tell them. That thought genuinely gives me anxiety (I know I'm a wuss) and this was how I felt when I knew I had to decline the previous job offer - it kept me up at night.
So can anybody advise me on what I should do? What would you do?! I know I need a thicker skin and it is just business but I can't help the way I feel about things sometimes. In a way I was hoping I wouldn't get this job and could focus my efforts on preparing for the second interview at the other company but now that they have offered me a good package I really need to consider it, and have been thinking about how good it could be. Should I just accept it and then let them down at a later date if I get the other job? There are so many variables! Advice appreciated. Thanks!