Ok, my phone just died on me after i had given every little details, ain't gonna do this all over again. In a nutshell, I love my job and has proven what I can do. Earlier this week, it was that time of the month and for some reason I felt absolutely sht , never happens to this extent, even seriously considered taking a day off, since I've started about 8 months ago, never been off sick. Anyway, at 9.20 am on Tuesday, my boss asks me to come to a meeting 9.30am, knew nothing about who was coming, topics, didnt have any details. I was sort of taken aback but went in. It lasted 1 hour and i literally said 2 short sentences, 1 to introduce myself and 1 to add details, and in fact it backfired, my boss had to argument to clarify my point. I was basically some sort of weird outsider in that meeting. There was another senior member who's at the same level as my boss there. So now im feeling really disappointed at myelf. I usually speak a lot more at meetings. Im thinking senior people are saying if a promotion comes along, they wont even consider me, given my abysmal performance at that meeting. I'm usually quite a confident person, but after that meeting it's like I had lost it and was not really myself. And it was still that* time days after urghhh...not sure What im looking for but yeah