After nearly 10 years at the same school I've applied for a job at another school and got myself an interview there on Tuesday. I ws OK about it to begin with as it's got a great reputation and I thought it would maybe offer me some new opportunities to develop my career, even though it's p/t. My present job has extra responsibilities but my Head is reluctant to really give me a lot of scope until I go back to f/t, which I don't really want now - and maybe not ever.
The new school have sent all the details for the job now and it's making me feel sick! At my present school it's a rough urban area; the kids are hard work but the school is very good and we get a lot out of them. There's not much parental support for some of the kids so it's pretty heavy on pastoral care and we get quite involved with the kids. They're very in-yer-face but mostly really likeable too.
The new school is in an affluent rural area, the exam results are the highest in the county; it's very cutting-edge and the facilities are fabulous. People I know who have visited or been on interview there before say discipline is fantastic, the kids are exceptionally well-behaved and everyone seems a real high-flier.
and now I'm shitting myself! part of me just wants to run back to my old school where it's safe and comfy and the kids & staff are 'real'. It all seems out of my league at this new place; I feel very intimidated now reading all of their bumph, but I know lots of teachers would give their right arm to work in a place like this. What if I'm not up to it? and what if it's got no 'heart'? I'm used to doing well in interviews but I haven't had one like this for 10 years and I'm surprised at how jittery I feel. I'm usually so confident!