Hi ladies,
Basically I just need to vent and see if any of you other ladies ever feel this way and how you deal with it.
Im a baby photographer and I work from home doing newborn and baby portrait sessions in my home studio. Sounds lovely doesn't it? And yes it is, I mean.. of course I love getting to photograph gorgeous babies and providing families with a set of images that they will cherish forever.
The problem is I work SO hard and sometimes I feel guilty for really not enjoying my job when I know I perhaps should?
I work around 6 days a week, 5 of those days I'm working from morning until around midnight between doing actual sessions and struggling to get editing done on time. I am currently pregnant so I am hoping that after my little maternity leave this will improve as I will be working more part time hours so it'll be less intense?
Secondly.. I feel so lonely and bored of sitting at home and staring at my computer editing constantly. I have nobody to talk to and my social life is a lot more limited. I used to work in childcare before so although I don't think Id ever go back to that due to terrible pay I had lots of colleages to chat with and even have a good moan to if you just were not having a great day.
Third thing is.. I always dread having a busy day of clients. I know I said I sometimes feel lonely but chatting to clients and being professional and super cheery and friendly isn't quite the same. The night before and morning of a busy session day I just dread it. Do any of you ladies with clients ever feel this way? 9 times out of 10 they are all lovely, but I think its just the knowing I am having these people come to my home studio and I will need to do the best job I can and make a good impression etc etc. I kind of build it up as I never seem to mind as much when I have a editing day at home... there is less pressure.
I kind of feel like Im blabbering on but I don't know any other photographers or self employed people who I can just vent to. I feel like everybody thinks its sunshine and rainbows and we are so 'lucky' to be self employed but actually its a very difficult, full on and often lonely place to be. I don't have any plans to stop doing what Im doing because the benefits are there 100% especially once my little one is here and I have that flexibility. Therefore, Im just wondering how you all cope with ever feeling this way? Any tips or tricks or things you tell yourself to get out of a funk?
Thanks!