Hello all, I’ve just returned to work in a qualified role, after being out of this role for a number of years. I only practised in my role for under 2 years overall in a couple of different settings. I was bullied in my last role and left it to pursue a non qualified, less stressful job. A few years later I had a baby. I’ve been a stay at home mum for almost 5 years now.
As a family we have been struggling with money a bit so I decided to go back to work. I somehow managed to get a job in the qualified role. I must also add that I have had issues with anxiety and depression, mainly anxiety, on and off for a number of years.
I’m finding myself to be in a heightened state of anxiety once again. It’s extremely stressful. Just being in an office with lots of people is causing me stress. I don’t want to talk to people, I don’t feel like a team member and I don’t know what to talk about. Then to top it off I have to do my job. I’m so out of practise and feel so out of my depth. When I’m in work, I feel like I want to just escape, I could explode. I relax a bit more when I’m at home, but I’m really snappy and on edge. It’s not fun at all. I also feel trapped as I need the money at the moment and can’t afford to leave. This isn’t normal is it? Does anyone else feel like this? Thinking about going back to see my doctor, but not sure I want to take medication again.