Finally after years of hard work an opportunity looks like it might be coming my way. I should be elated and full of confidence however the opposite seems to have happened.
I don’t understand it, I feel that it is all going to be lost at the last minute. I can’t focus on my work and have just messed up by telling my boss I feel this way. My DH has suggested that this is going to make me sound very needy and I may have blown it.
I have no idea why I’m feeling this way, I’ve worked so much and so hard to get here and now I am full of self doubt, feeling paranoid and very alone.
There will be a competitive process for this opportunity which I am so worried I’m going to mess up or will be used as a chance to take the opportunity away for above disclosure of neediness 😧.
Anyone else ever felt like this or have any words of wisdom or encouragement? Is this imposter syndrome? Honestly I’m in knots and so down about this all, also worried that is going to show- I basically feel a sorry mess and wallowing in way too much so thought I’d turn to MN friends for a chat......