A bit of back storey...
I've been off sick for a while now, I had a loss in my family and I was also bullied at work which cause my ocd to spiral out of control, I waited until it was bad before I admitted I needed help. I am doing things to help myself, doing courses, on waiting list for cbt, go to several ocd support groups, see my gp regularly, started exercising. I'm feeling a bit better and managing better than i was (I couldn't even make a cup of tea at my worse i'd rinse the kettle over and over until it felt right). I'm functioning better now and have started pushing myself a little. Anyway i'll get to the point. I'm too scared to go back to work, the person who bullied me is still there, I've been told (by a colleague) when I do come back i'll get all rubbish shifts and i'll have to work full time to give everyone a break from covering for me for so long. I work on my own for part of my shift and this also worries me, I can't control my ocd as well when I'm on my own, I need support just by knowing someone is there. Then if i'm obsessing I've done something wrong there will be someone who can double check things for me when I doubt myself. I'm also running out of money as I don't get sick pay so have been using savings. I've applied for other jobs I think i'll cope with at the moment, ones where I won be totally alone and with christmas coming up i'm getting worried. Today I got an call to come for a interview. My sick note doesn't run out until November, Do i tell them I cant start until November? I have to give 1 months notice anyway. Can I end my sick note early? Do I need to tell them I was off sick? Do I have to declare I have a disability? Will they not employ me because of it? I'm no way near back to how i was, my gp thinks I will never be like I was before and I just have to learn to live with it. I don't know if i'm doing the right thing or not, my partner thinks it will help my ocd by getting back into a routine or work etc. Thank you