Hi all.
First off, let me give a bit if background. I'm currently working in a role I hate, mainly due to it being very high pressured and the managerial staff being awful (terrible attitudes and very, very poor communication). I am good at my role but there is a persistent issue which I can't seem to get around, which is causing an issue with my managers and I have had several meetings over it but just cannot seem to change it. I have a feeling this will be a dealbreaker soon and am keen to get out before I'm pushed. I have never had any problems with any other job I have done and have always been good at my job, so this is unusual for me and is really affecting my self-esteem. The place I work is very unhelpful, if you make a mistake you get in trouble but if you ask questions you get told you shouldn't need to ask questions anymore if you have been working there x amount of time. When mistakes are made, you can expect a manager to storm over and shout at you in the middle of the office in front of everyone and asked why you made the mistake and why you didn't get it right (no room for human error here!)
Anyway, I wanted to include the background to illustrate the sort of environment it is. I have an interview this week straight after work and I am freaking the heck out because I work in a very casual environment clothes wise, think jeans and trainers. I cannot go into work dressed for an interview, it would be a million miles away from my usual work attire. I cant say I am going to the dentist/doctors as I have to show appointment letters/texts to prove I am going to an appointment. I can't use a childcare excuse as my manager asked me about childcare and knows I have 4 separate family members I can ask for help so they won't all be busy at the same time. I can't use annual leave as we are only allowed one person off at a time and someone is already off.
This is really making me nervous and anxious. The only way I can see out of it is to pull a sicky, but this doesn't sit well with me. I have always had low level anxiety but working here has ramped it right up and I'm almost scared to have an interview anyway as I'm convinced I'm useless after being pulled up constantly for this issue at work (which is to do with pace/time management. And no, nobody has offered further training to help me, despite asking). Anyone have any ideas on good reasons to leave work early?! Or do I just take the day off? I'm also a really bad liar so thinking about making up an excuse to leave early also makes me panic a bit!! Please help?!