Sorry for the long post but I'm so fuc@ed off at the moment! I'm trying to find a job with some actual prospects and opportunities for a career! I want to do my diplomas in health and social care so when my kids are older I can do my nursing degree. I've been looking for work in community care but everywhere wants me starting at 7am! My daughter isn't old enough for breakfast club yet (preschool) and my mum will not help at all. She forgets how my nan used to look after us from 7 in the morning some days then all night and into the day whilst she slept! She's forgotten how I used to have days off school to look after my little brothers and take them to preschool then pick them up. Yesterday I went for a job in care and I got so humiliated by the company owner😢 I'd put on my application my dds specialist nurse as a reference. He loudly asked me in the office why? And why can't he ask the previous company I worked for? So I told him the nursing company I worked for went bust 8 years ago...well he starts waving my application to everyone in the office shouting '8 years 8 years she's not worked for how am I supposed to get a reference on that? How have you not worked for 8 years?' To an office of 15 people staring at me! When 8 years ago I was sat in intensive care with my son in a coma who had been diagnosed with type 1 diabetes at the age of 15 months! He's been very ill ever since and was left with mild brain damage. A few years after that I found myself in a chemotherapy suite with my dad who I nursed until he died 3 years ago leaving my nan behind heartbroken with Alzheimer's, since then I've been her main Carer looking after her dealing with her confusion, making sure she's not lonely having her round for tea and taking her out at the weekend. Whilst dealing with 3 kids one of them Ill! Put it this way I don't want his shite job and I won't justify myself to him! So again I'm left looking for job between 9 and 3 and again and again I'm told no your availability isn't enough. I can't do evenings, my son won't count his own carbs weigh his own food or give himself insulin and won't let anyone inject him not even my husband! Where are these jobs?? I can't find them!!!