I'm going to have to make a decision, most likely next week, whether or not to apply for a job. I will most likely get it due to seniority. But I'm currently working as a casual. The job is for part time. I had this job before but resigned due to my health. I only had the job under a year but have worked as a casual for almost 10 years. There is always work. Still I get paranoid one day I'll be screwed as work will die off due to cut backs. On the other hand committing to a set schedule freaks me out because I still have problems staying healthy and sometimes it's just less stressful to know if I get sick I can stay home and not stress about missing work or letting the team down.
My husband thinks I should leave things as they are and not apply. I really like my job and would like to have secured hours but at the same time it scares me to have that commitment.
I really don't know what I hope to accomplish by writing this down. Perhaps, more clarity.
My mom thinks I should apply as working is good for my mental health and that I can always back out. I'm worried that will look bad. I'm also wondering if they'll not want me as I had the job before and then resigned. Although one of the managers said they would be glad to have me back. I'm a hard worker.
I feel sick about either of the decisions. Everyone at work expects me to apply. I'm worried I'll regret it if I don't. But worried I'll regret it if I do. :(