How do I reconcile myself to work

[lizzieoak]

Since my divorce 10+ years ago, I've been back at work part-time. I've had a variety of jobs & hours, up to 30 hours a week recently (but w a week off every month).

I've just started a full-time job (over 35 hours per week, which is fairly heavy for my country & sector).

The people seem nice - though not my sorts and I suspect I'll need to masquerade as a slightly different me so as to avoid bullying. I'm anticipating being lonely as there's very little work chat and what little there is is about sports teams & other things I'm just not interested in. But they do seem nice.

I need the money, but am feeling stressed about being away from home so much. I miss my home, & cats, & kids. Partly due to being bullied at work in the past & partly because work bores me rigid I get a bit anxious about being stuck there.

Any ideas re. soldiering on day in and day out? I need motivating!

Maybe you should retrain as a childminder?? I don't know how the Canadian system works but it sounds like you are ideal for the job?

I'd love to do something creative but have never been able to figure out what. At this point I feel I need to make a steady lower middle class income to pay off debts and work for @ least 5 years in this organization to have some sort of extra pension.

I'm not sure exactly what childminding entails in the U.K.? I don't imagine nannies are paid much in Canada and preschool teachers make about halfway between my wage and minimum I think.

So while I like those ideas at the moment I think I'm going to have to plough ahead w what I've got.

And now I've got a cold so have to call in sick in my second week! The work is very detail oriented & ive learned from other jobs that people don't hold it against you if you're at home sick, but they sure do remember if you screw up!