Namechanged for this but I swear I have been here for far too long a while.
I have been trying to find a new job for almost one year now. I apply for endless jobs, I get telephone interviews, I get invited for a face to face interview, a second interview with the manager, or with a panel, I prepare presentations, spend hours on this shit ... and then I don't get the job.
Today I received THREE rejections following interviews. One in particular I am devastated about because the interview went really well, the manager added me on LinkedIn and then ignored my emails for 3 weeks!
I have lost count of how many interviews I have had. I have recently started to have nasty, intrusive thoughts, that perhaps my disability is putting companies off and that is why I do really well on phone interviews but after coming in I get useless feedback that tells me nothing.
Or maybe it's my shitty, bitter personality? 
It is so demoralising.