I am due back at work in 2.5 weeks. I love my job, I really really do and when I go back, I will be working just 4 days a week instead of 5 (we can't afford for me to go half time, and this seemed the best compromise)
But now I am beginning to really really panic and get upset about it. I don't want to go back, I like being at home and going to baby groups, doing the grocery shop, being the 50's housewife and all that, which I never thought I would. My childcare arrangements are in place and couldn't be better, I know she will really take good care of him, but I want to do that - what if he likes being with her more than with me???
And my four days will be really long days, I will leave the house about 6.45am and not get in until about 6pm, I'll hardly see him (though his big brother or dad will generally have collected him by then, so its not as if he will be at the CM's all that time, plus his daddy works part shifts, so it won't be four full days anyway)
And my boss has been out to see me to bring me up to speed and I feel like everything has changed and I know nothing about my job or department anymore. Its worse than starting a new job, cos I will have to unlearn stuff, rather than just learn new stuff
I am in a right tizz now, incase you can't tell
Oh God, Oh God, Oh God