I wish I could get another job (had a couple of interviews, dozens of hours spend on application forms).
My boss is a lady, but a loudmouth bully. Had several meetings with her, her boss and HR but to no avail. She says my work is substandard (I have really given 100% to improving but to be honest, the workload is ridiculous and the expectations or rather need for perfection is unrealistic). I worry all the time that I'll get something wrong. Worse still, after a few mistakes everyone on the team makes me the scapegoat. They are all making just as many mistakes, which go un-noticed. I had a month off with stress recently. I just couldn't do any more.
I'm a confident person, but I don't really stand up to them. Nowadays though, I have noticed that when something is wrong, everyone blames me. A couple of times I've had to take a deep breath and say that the mistake was nothing at all to do with me. When it's someone else on the team, they just laugh it off, when it's me, I can almost see my boss getting out her 'appraisal' note book. Nobody apologises or says anything when I say it wasn't me. (it's easy to tell, we have to put our names to everything we do).
My colleague (who is regarded as the star) spends most of his day quietly browsing the internet on his phone or watching videos. If he is so good he's done all his work, why doesn't boss share out more of the work to him?
Boss says my workload isn't heavy, but to me it is. She says you must do your reports, when I ask for the data, she says 'I'm more worried about your cases' so I said I can't get the log to update it so you can see I'm up to date (colleague is always hogging it so I have to record my changes/cases done, and then save them when she goes home or to lunch.) So she says 'well it's about prioritising'. But I can't win, and I can't prioritise everything.
Boss, her boss and rest of the team make me feel like a leper.