Hi all
I'd appreciate some external input. A few details have been changed/omitted as you never know who is reading...
I am a marketing freelancer. I am working with Company A again. When I first worked with them I didn't feel the 'click' with the people, but it was a fairly short project which they were happy with my written output. It was early on in my freelancing and I let them push me on price, however, when they tried to get me to do some further stuff for free 'It could lead to more work' I pushed back and left them to it. I'd already had a number of free pre-work meetings, so I felt I'd give enough.
I have since been commissioned to work on a 2nd larger project. I have delivered some of this 2nd project (which has gone ok) and I about to start a report on the future.
I find my key contact very changeable and unclear. They don't acknowledge the change though, they just start talking like that was always the plan/direction which I find very difficult to deal with as it makes me question myself. They are also very time-poor which I know is the case with most people that use freelancers, but often they cannot see me for weeks whilst wanting things delivered asap....
I also felt they were a bit passive aggressive in a recent meeting (B). I felt (although it could be me being too sensitive) that some comments about being unhappy with how a previous meeting (A) went was actually how my key contact felt not the other staff who they said were making the comments.
I found the (B) meeting difficult, it felt there was a lots of dissatisfaction and digs. Also normally as the consultant I tend the lead the meetings but they did which I found dis-orientating too.
In addition there is a consistent issue about price and how long things take which is draining.
As an organisation there is a lot of unhappiness and people being 'let go'. I feel some of the comments about how the previous meeting (A) went can be linked to these issues and I am being scapegoated.
I had wanted to walk away before this next stage started but DH encouraged me to continue. It is day rate stuff and this 2nd stage will be a few days which would be helpful, but I could survive without them.
They are a good eg of my niche, so it would be a good case study if it goes well, but who knows.
However, I really just want to give my excuses now before I start on this 2nd stage. It is unprofessional, but my instinct is they will continue to make me feel unhappy and frustrated and I want to get out/away from them.
I have worked with a number of organisations as a freelancer and have never felt like this. I don't expect sunshine & roses, but this feels like the wrong thing on lots of levels...
If I decide to withdraw, should I be honest 'The fit isn't working', or just be vague. I am active on social media so I don't want to infer I am not working/ill etc. I also feel that their task is so large they'd be better off employing somebody internally to deal with the project, which I could say to them.
Thanks for reading if you got this far. What do you think? WWYD?