switch jobs if making your existing anxiety even worse?

[confusedmummy123]

Currently 22 weeks pregnant. I really try my best at work. Just this week I had managed to convince myself that I am doing a good job. However reading between the lines I feel my boss thinks I'm under performing. Don't know what to do as I am really trying my best. Think they may want someone who works quicker but can't go any faster and if I do I make loads of mistakes. Don't know if its me and my skills aren't particularly suited to this role? My skills are with talking to people. I can strike up an instant rapport with strangers and have been told I have a bubbly personality. My plan was to wait until I am two months away from returning to work after maternity leave and start looking for jobs. Even if its a lower wage to me the priority is to be happy in your job. At the moment my anxiety levels are sky high. I feel sick and on edge at work and tearful. On my days off I can't fully relax as thinking about going back to work. I'm sure people think I'm mad though for wanting to leave a career but its making me really ba d. Has anyone else switched jobs after maternity leave and been better for it? Thanks for reading

I think you should schedule a meeting with your manager and ask them outright if they have any concerns or if you can improve anything.

Sounds like you're sensing something but tbh you have no idea of what it is - I think knowing will take a big load off you, and if it's something like proofing documents before you send there are simple work processes you could put into practice to avoid them.

Today was awful
Pretty sure I was been talked about. Feeling panicked about going back in on Wednesday. My mum says to do my best. I really am but its never good enough. Just don't know what to do at all.