Thats it really.
Long story which I won't bore those of you that don't know about it with.
Went to final meeting with service head and HR bod and basically they said was not to discuss anything other than my returning to work and what I wanted.
I said this was not fair - I was incensed by the lies in the report and wanted that investigating. They said no - as my initial complaint was reinvestigated by an outside employee and they found that my complaint had no grounds then that was the end of the process.
So basically the lies which surfaced in the interviews of rasict lady and the horrid bitter, jealous bitch lady will not be looked into as they came under the heading of the initial investigation which is now closed.
I had a bit of a meltdown and said that that was utterly unfair. I had been accused of accessing medical notes of children 'I know' (I do not know any children with access to our service), accessing HR records of colleagues and sharing their increment levels with horrid lady (I am backed up by HR (the financial, records part of HR that deals with that side of things) that I would not even have access to that information). I also brought up the 'file note' which mentions my pregnancy dated and signed by nasty racist lady before I was even pregnant. I said if what they were saying is true then I should be fired and if it isn't it does back up my claim of victimisation.
Apparently as these allegations were not made formal then I shouldn;t be at all bothered by them.
The Service Head was completely unmoved, said if I was so upset she would look into it informally but that is as far as she will let it go and apparently she has the right to decide whether something is investigated or not.
So now I think it is time to just leave, wait until the time comes that I have to tell them whether I am going back or not and tell them that I am not. They actually said my work place was the office where the 2 women work and they thought I would be happy to go back there. They were shocked when I said I would find jumping under a train preferable.
All I am now bothered about is getting the lies removed from my HR file. I will never need to ask these people for a reference but I am not having such serious things said about me and it lying there for anyone to read if they have access.
Thats it really.
Makes me wonder why I bloody stood up for myself in the first place.
Thank you for all of your help and support though lively mumsnetters.
MC