Hi everyone, I need to let off some steam and would really appreciate any advice or thoughts from a fresh perspective..
I'm amum of one (15 month old). Went back to work 6 months ago 4 dpw (out of necessity) and really not enjoying it. I have a long commute (3hrs per day) and I'm doing the same job I've done for nearly 7 years. Not fulfilled or stimulated by it at all, feel like my brain is shrinking!!! I honestly feel like a failure, I should have made a change years ago but didn't. Anyway, awful thing is I have a place on a teaching course but have realised I cannot afford to take it up - we can't live off my husbands salary. Money is very tight as it is.
To complicate matters we would like another baby. My current employer has a very good mat package so I feel trapped there now - hate having to think like this but we're not fortunate enough for this not to matter!! I wonder if I should do something drastic and leave (husband thinks this is a terrible idea) and look for work locally. I'm getting quite depressed at times because I'm so unhappy. I would love to be a SAHM at the mo but this really isn't realistic. I feel guilty for complaining as I know I'm lucky in lots of ways but I know if I don't make a change things are only going to get worse- I already feel like I'm losing my mind! Any constructive advice for me gratefully received.