Hi ladies,
I'm new here, but know it's a good place to join! So here's where I'm at, before I begin I guess what I'm after here is advice from mums who have been in a similar situation and know how I feel, more of a friend thing I guess!
My partner is a typical bloke "don't worry" and friends and family are "your work is amazing you'll get straight back into it"
Neither actually understand my fears, probably because I don't actually need to worry but alas, My brain does not think like that!
So in a nutshell I took one huge leap of faith and started my own business to avoid going back to my awful job, my maternity leave gave me time to find this business, I am a sponge, I can turn my hand at anything, this wasn't a if I can this was an I can! In the end it was photography, and turns out I wasnt too bad, feel free to check me out on www.sj-photography.co.uk
I did this purely to be flexible with my beautiful daughter, fast forward to now, over two years later and I am a successful, in demand 25 year old Newborn Artistry Photographer.
I worked myself so hard last year that I ended up visiting the Drs, I had suffered a panic attack and spent a fair few days in bed with horrible anxiety. All down to working in over drive for too long. I didnt learn much as the rest of the year I worked solid, but getting married in Las Vegas and now having had two weeks off for Christmas it has stopped me going that far.
I am now 14weeks pregnant and so happy :)
But worried about taking 6months maternity and only having work for my ten keeping in touch days, people are already wanting to book, so days are flying fast...
Anyone else know how I'm feeling?! I know I'll have to turn away soo many clients and they will ultimately have to find alternatives or go for their second choices, boosting their business whilst mine remains very quiet. I want to not care, I want to enjoy my babies 6months, I wish my mind wasn't so "perfect" I want everything to work like well, clock work! And it never will... I want to be the best mum, to spend time with my children, but find it hard saying no to clients, anyone overcome this and now find it easy to say no and just enjoy life?! I love my life but just wish I didnt have so much attatchment to my business.
Sorry for this terribly long rant!
Thanks for reading (if you got this far!!)
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