But I have to we need the money :(
Background had lots of problems with my employers in the past very toxic working environment- grievances left right and centre (generally in office not me personally).
Work have been pretty awful while I've been off making it awkward for me to even apply for flexible working never mind actually get it. Union involved but at this time I have to go along with works plan which means I won't find out what hours I can do until 4 weeks before I go back.
My dd is very clingy and still feeding all the time refuses bottles altogether. I hate leaving her anyway.
I am desperate not to go back to a job I hate the thought is making me ill but I have no choice we need the money even my pt wages would be good.
What can I do to make the whole thing less upsetting