Struggling to get my head around being back FT. Sorry this is long and a bit ranty.

[stowsettler]

I had my DD in February, and if I'm honest I didn't love being a mother straightaway. So, when my cover at work fell ill I didn't need any persuading to go back 1-2 days per week when she was just 6 weeks old. It gave me the best of both worlds - I could keep my hand in at work and get a break from baby stuff, but I still got to spend most of my time with her. The time at work really made me appreciate her so much more.
However, I'm now back at work full time and she is not yet 6 months old. I don't really have a choice, because DP is struggling work wise (he's self-employed) and I earn far more than him anyway.
But I don't really want to go out to work! I think my issues fall into 2 categories:-

1. I feel as if I'm doing loads at home as well as going out to work (I get up at 6am, walk dogs then get DD up, feed her and play with her for a bit). In actual fact I welcome this because I do at least see DD for a little while each day. However is it unreasonable of me to feel aggrieved that DP had a face on this morning because DD was whinging to be got up while I was out with the dogs? Her getting up time is 6.45am, we agree on this, but there are mornings when she wakes earlier. Whilst I was on mat leave I would go in, give her her dummy and go back to bed but nowadays I can't do that because I have to walk dogs first thing. Of course the alternative is for me to get up a bit later, see to DD before going to work and leave DP to walk the dogs. Apparently that's no good because he doesn't want the responsibility of walking the dogs. Again - fine with me, I like my morning walks with my first 2 babies! DP is just gonna have to suck it up isn't he?

Oops posted WAY too early.

Can anyone think of another way around this?

1. I miss DD so much more than I thought I would! I just want to be with her. I have the intelligence and application to start my own business. What I don't have is capital (or at least not much) or any really blinding idea. Help!

1. DP needs to put some effort in - am I reading right that he's not exactly snowed under with work, but you're still doing the lion's share at home? Certainly he's unreasonable to complain that he might occasionally have to get her up in the morning - he is a parent now.

1. No idea :( sorry. Hope you work something out, it sounds v hard.

I'm doing the lion's share in the mornings.
TBF he's very good with her, is totally committed to being a SAHD and does pull his weight around the house. We share cooking and bedtime, and we have a cleaner who comes once a week. We also have a dog walker who comes 3 days a week so he doesn't have to walk them at all on those days. This is a hangover from when he had more work and didn't have time to walk them, but it suits us to keep her.
His argument is he does the evenings, i.e. the dream feed at 11pm. He's a night owl and I'm an early bird so it makes sense in theory - however, there's so much more to do in the mornings than in the evenings!