Hi
Think I'm just airing all this as hopefully it will help me to figure it all out myself but be interested to know if anyone else has been in similar situation.
I have a stable job that pays ok but I hate it. I'm off on mat leave (hoorah) in a few months so won't have to think about it all for a while. I'm also v fortunate that employer is good with part time working. I don't ever want to go back but my head tells me I have to as I'd never find another part time role for similar pay once I've got baby. My heart tells me I need to hurry up and use time I have left pre mat leave figuring it out what it is I would like to do for a career. My dh says I should go back, as we plan to have two, so would be silly not too. I stupidly thought I didn't have to go back but we need the money (though maybe it might be ok to take pay cut). Urgh such a ridiculous problem. My job just makes me feel stressed and ill at the moment so I am thinking about it a lot. Am also really annoyed with myself with trundling along like this and not figuring out what might suit me. Maybe I'm just asking too much? It's a job. I should be happy. It pays the bills and I get time with my (future) children. I see a lot of posts where employers are being really inflexible, so I should be grateful. On the other hand I feel I shouldn't limit myself to that way of thinking, if only I could just figure out an alternative! I would love to work for myself. I have a few ideas, I just feel a bit scared of failure, plus is it completely crazy to be thinking about this when I'm about to have little one? Or is it the good idea to go for it all at once?! I will prob read all this back tomorrow and think stop being so melodramatic. I've just had another crappy day in job and feeling a bit preggo hormonal. X