I am supposed to start a job Monday, but I have been at home for the past 6 months with my son and don't want to leave him. I also have 2 girls 10 and 6 years. The job is only part-time and I will be leaving him for 5 hours each day. At the moment I don't need to work, but staying at home is making me depressed and I know it's not good for my son. I am a single mum and I feel I am letting him down. We cling to each other all the time, I never put him down and he never wants to be put down. Most of my days I am just sat watching tv with him while he's feeding or sleeping. Financially, I claim unemployment right now and have some months left. The problem is if I start work I will lose it and not get it back if I can't cope with the job and want to leave. The other thing I worry about is who's going to look after the girls during the holidays, to have someone watch them I will have no pay cheques those weeks. I am so confused any advice would be appreciated.
Thank you.