To cut a long story short. I work for the NHS on an intense ward with highly dependent patients. This is my first post since I qualified, I also started the job pregnant so was only there for six months then had a year off. I hated my job then and hate it even more so now. I find it really stressful and don't feel supported, this along side having zero confidence has resulted in being signed off with stress/depression. I came back after two weeks worked another two and then have been signed off again.
I'm still currently off work, and have managed to bag a job I'm more suited to. I have to give six weeks notice two of which are covered with a sick note and one week my boss has given me as I asked for shorter notice. This would mean I would still have three weeks to give. I don't feel I can return the thought makes me sick and my paranoid self believes that I'm being bitched about and frowned upon by people who obviously don't understand. I had one nurse of my level snap and be quite rude with me, I had only come back to work after being off with stress and it tipped me over the edge and was signed off again. The only reason I returned was because I was worried how it would effect my future career.
I'm due back at the doctors next Monday and I don't know whether to ask for another couple of weeks that would take me up to my last day? I feel pressure to return with my boss asking me whether it would be better to leave on good terms and return. Will they give me bad references. Can my new job be withdrawn because I've been off with stress? Should I take more time off? Don't know what to do! I know people have bigger problems than me in the world but I don't want to work somewhere where my husband has to drag me in or I'm in tears before I even get there and worrying all week about going in.
Please advice what I should do.
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