Ok, so I'm thinking of returning to a career after 4.5 years. In the gap I've had a baby and I've built up my own business as a childminder working at home, now earning reasonably but working 50 + hours a week at the moment. With my baby grown to 4 years old now and at school I feel ready for a change.
I am excited about the thought of returning to work I used to love and only need to work 6 or so shifts per month as the money is good......
But... ;
I will be freelancing this time rather than employed, so no contracts, just covering other's holiday and sick leave, no guaranteed work.
I will have to commute to London, 2 hours each way.
I will be covering shifts - up to 12 hours, overnight/late night.
I will need to update my skills and train.
I'm worried I've lost my nerve after all this time!
My four year old can go to after school club/ friends until dad can collect on the evenings I'm working, but I will find it hard to be away.
Am I mad for wanting to give it a try?
I figure worst case scenario, I'm shattered two/three days each week, miss my family terribly on the days I work, feel unsettled not knowing when or if I'll be working and don't get as many shifts as I need to survive. Sounds dreadful now I think about it!