A venting post - retraining for me which means less time for dc

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I gave up a decent job (which I hated, was not properly qualified for and where I felt really trapped) where I was working part-time. Now to get to do the job that I have always wanted to do, I´m going to be starting studying full-time, for years. DS is going to have to go from part-time nursery to full-time. DD is going to have to spend her school holidays in child-care (since resigning I´ve had a year as a SAHM and have really enjoyed being there in her holidays).
I can´t go back to my last job or anything related to it, so I have now burned my bridges but am just posting to vent really.
For me, I took exactly the right decision to get out of what I couldn´t do and hated to start doing what I want to do in an area where employment prospects seem good. I´m incredibly lucky that we can manage this financially. I just can´t believe I´m so selfish and am doing this to the dcs.

Second subject: I can´t believe I was so foolhardy giving up a job when I had one. No matter how awful. A job in the hand is worth two in the bush. I thought about it for 10 years so it wasn´t exactly a hasty decision, but: what have I done???!

You hated it and felt trapped and could afford to leave?? All good reasons...
Completely understand yr guilt about leaving kids, but you're investing in all yr futures by retraining plus resentful mum not the best carer. Good luck!

Presumably you will get some holidays from your training , and if you have a partner he'll get annual leave? So you juggle things to cover as much of the school holidays as possible. Yes, your children will spend more time than previously in childcare, but that's no different from many families- plus even your youngest can't be that young if you've had a year ML

you were clearly very unhappy in your job - and being unhappy is not best for your children. You are now doing something proactive to make things better for the whole family. Well done you.

Thank you both. My youngest is 4 so as you say, Janey, not so young. I think with this decision, I feel I have to be so positive about it to everyone - not least to sell it to people like ... dh! Then sometimes I´m just horrified by what I´ve done and what could go wrong!