So I've been back at work (full time but flexible) for a couple of weeks following year's mat leave after DC2. I have my childcare arrangements sorted and that's fine. But I'm finding other things hard. I feel very 'out of it', on another planet, woolly-headed, find it extremely hard to focus or concentrate on any one thing for very long, my thoughts flit from one thing to another, I can barely string a sentence together half the time. I don't feel capable of tackling more complex or difficult projects. I feel like part of my brain is missing or deteriorating. Some days are worse than others.
I could just be tired, I suppose, but I've felt like this for months now, before even going back. Towards end of mat leave, my GP suggested ADs as I was frequently in tears and felt very bleak for no reason. Felt very irritated by DC1 (3) too much of the time. I didn't want to take ADs so we agreed to leave it for a while.
I'm scared that I've gone a bit loopy in some way, my career is over, it's all going to get steadily worse and I won't even be able to function properly as a wife and mother.
Has anyone else felt like this on return to work with 2 young children, and did it get any better?
Maybe I should go back to GP.