A few weeks ago I was pulled up at work for a number of issues after having some bad feedback. Much of this has been resolved now (some wasn't my fault, some was, but it was agreed I should have had more support etc) but I?ve now totally lost my confidence at work :(
Every time I open my mouth, absolute garbage comes out ? I can barely string a sentence together in a meeting, and if I do, it?s so quiet hardly anyone can hear me. I?m fine one on one, unless it?s a senior person I?m dealing with, but if it is, I really struggle to make eye contact or come across as knowledgeable or proactive. If I?m giving a project update or similar, I lose my train of thought so quickly unless I have very specific notes. I come across like I don?t have a clue what I?m on about. I keep on making stupid mistakes that don?t help matters either ? I?ve sent round updates that were out of date, and useful information that had only been sent last week.
I don?t want to turn into a car crash ? I love my job, certainly can?t afford to lose it, and I really want to work to improve myself. If I was younger and didn?t have children, I?d probably have just handed my notice in and get a job elsewhere, but I just can?t do that here. My manager and team are sympathetic when I stumble over my words or I?m quiet; and were supportive over the bad feedback issue, but it doesn?t help.
Out of work I'm better, but I'm definitely lacking in confidence generally.
Any ideas?