Years ago I had a good job which I worked hard at, did well, achieved lots and got promoted to a senior position in a competitive industry before I was 30. Then I had a blip, quite a big one. Not quite a breakdown but very nearly. And I chucked the job in, moved to the seaside and didn't work for while because I was able to support myself quite nicely. Anyway... fast forward 10 years. I feel like a complete failure, that I chucked my career away and now I'm hurtling towards 40, in a part-time junior management role with no prospects and even less credibility. I know I'm depressed because I'm not sleeping well, can't concentrate & forget everything and to top it all off I started having panic attacks again last week. I've just applied for a better job but my application was completely pants and everything I did of any note was at least 5 years ago when I was full time, and mainly it was 10 years ago when I had a decent job and tried alot harder. I'm sorry to moan and recognise this is mainly self pity and hindsight, I just want to stop feeling rubbish about myself for not being in a better place career wise. I keep telling myself that I've got two beautiful daughters and that should be enough and then I feel even worse because it just isn't for me.