Hi I really want to get back to work after the last company when into administration just over two years ago. I have a dd (7yrs) and a ds (3yrs). My ds is due to go to school September 2013 (not this year as he is an October baby). I am due to give birth on 29 July to a baby girl. My dh is Spanish. The question is I really want to get a Spanish au-pair but I don't yet work. I'm panicking that I will never have time to look for work with 3 kids. We have the room and we could prob afford a Spanish au pair. The question is as I don't have work at the moment would it be wise to get an au pair after I have had the baby? Or wait 6 months to a year and then get the au pair? I am 40 and I am very worried about time running out to sort out my life and retrain or get a new job. I think with three kids I won't even have time to think let alone be productive in a job search. My dh works all hours and is often away in weekends (on call). I have no family in London where I live. I feel scared about leaving a longer gap on my CV before returning to work. However in the last two years before I fell pregnant I got such few interviews it was very difficult and still is very difficult to think about getting paid work. Should I just chill out and worry about getting an au-pair girl once I have had the baby and seen how life is with three kids? Or should I try and get one for September to spend time helping me with older kids, understanding baby needs and help me and give me time to look for work?