I need help! Here is my situation:
I worked full time for years when my children were younger (now 9 and 7) and really feel i missed out on a lot (although at the time we made it work, we had a brilliant childminder!). I went to work part time with my husband 2 years ago which allowed me to work school hours and take holidays off. Perfect balance? I really enjoyed being able to be there for my youngest during infant school, going to assemblies, there when they are ill etc. However, money is a constant worry. With all our eggs in one basket so to speak, I worry constantly about money and "what if", I imagine losing the house and all sorts...... I also find school holidays really hard work and constantly feel like i am shouting at the kids and its not pleasant. DH cant take time off for hols and we could nt afford it ATM anyway. So its just me and the boys....for 6 whole weeks....hard work!
I decided a month ago I needed to go back to work full time. Money and my hate of school hols being driving factor. I am due to start job in 2 weeks. its a good job with great benefits but the more I think about it now, the less i want to do it! I dont want to stick the children in an afterschool/ holiday club.I dont want to go back to all the politics of an office, filling in forms and requesting time off when kids are ill. Trying to get time off for assemblies and sports days etc etc. Ideally I would have waited at least one more year until the youngest was at juniors too but this job came up. so do I turn down job, risking that another opportunity wont come along and continue to have the control and flexibility of working with DH in our own business OR or do I grab the opportunity with both hands?