Confused...HELP!

[hypermum1]

OK, this is a bit of a long one! I currently work with my husband in our own business. we have 2 children, 7 and 9. I work school hours and take all the holidays off. Sounds good in theory and i realise how lucky I am. However, I have been offered a full time job elsewhere. it is good money and would bring around £1500 more in to the house each month. BUT it means leaving my husband on his own in the business, and, as we have no family to help out, putting my children in to an after school/holiday club. I am torturing myself about what to do for the best. The business is doing OK, not great but not awful.Although I can spend time at home with boys during the holidays, I do not enjoy it. I find it hard work and get very depressed. There is no one else around as all my friends work full time, I have no family around and I get quite isolated. But I feel so guilty about disrupting everyone and putting my children in to an after school club or a holiday club. Any advice?

My 9 yr old BEGS to be allowed to go to sports camp/holiday clubs, to be with friends and not at home doing boring stuff with me :o
Despite saying you find the holidays difficult... you must be REALLY good at entertaining them if they'd prefer to be with you than having fun with their mates! Why don't you discuss with them and see what their reaction is? I'm not saying offer them a choice, but you may be surprised to hear they'd love to go to holiday clubs?

Hmmmm, we have talked about it and both sons say they dont want me to go back full time! God knows why as I am a grumpy cow when I am at home with them and we all seem to spend the whole time arguing, hence the reason I don t enjoy holidays! I think its just the fact that this year we are on hols in Dec which means I wont be able to take any time off at all during school hols so for 6 weeks solid they will be in the holiday club day in day out. Going forwards, I would take 2 weeks in hols to break it up for them. Husb quite inflexible when it comes to taking time off so all falls to me...I have been going over and over every eventuality for the last 2 weeks, driving myself insane and reaching no conclusion at all!