I've been very stressed at work lately, it has all sort of built up over the last 6 months or so - increasing workload, lack of support, dissatisfied and disillusioned with my managers especially since I did badly in my last appraisal because of misinformation/lack of organisation on their part.
I have been having some health problems (mainly heart palpitations and shortness of breath) which are being investigated which may be stress related but until I'm told I'm not dying or have a serious health condition I can't but help worry that that's what I've got, as unreasonable as that may be.
Last week in work I ended up in tears in the toilets as a result of further bad choices by management (I'm very ashamed of this, I feel like it's completely unprofessional of me). I am currently off sick as I have been suffering with a horrible cold for a week (and truth be told, while I would normally just grin and bear it I can't face being ill and being at work at the moment) and I followed the the process agreed with my manager for reporting my absence even though it's not the official process. Stupidly, the agreement to use this unofficial process is not documented anywhere and today I have been told that I should use the official process instead. I can remember the meeting in which I was told to use the unofficial process but obviously I have no proof of that. I know this sounds like something really little and uninportant but once again it feels like decisions are being made without people informing me. I don't expect to be consulted but I do expect to be told when changes happen!
I haven't replied to the message telling me I've been doing it wrong because I'm too strung up about it at the moment but I'm also annoyed that this isn't the first time I've done it by the unofficial process (I did it last week too!) and it was apparently fine then. I thought I was doing ok and de-stressing ready to face the rest of the week at work but this message has completely put me right back to the way I was feeling when I had to go and cry in the toilets. I'm actually fighting back tears writing this as stupid as that sounds.
I have successfully applied for a place in another team at work which will allow me to get rid of my current workload and work under new managers, however a date has not been agreed for my move (sometime after the next month I think is the most accurate date I've been able to get out of my managment). Even me getting this new role was a farce (the first I knew about it was when my current role was advertised to the rest of the department).
So how do I get through the next month or so in my current team with my current workload without my head exploding in the meantime? I would dearly love to get signed off but I know that's just running away.