So short version without intentionally dripfeeding...
On one hand I have the offer of a great role - company I use to work for, can pretty much dictate my own hours, no move down the career ladder, working with people I know have a lot of respect for me. The contract arrived in my inbox overnight to be signed and returned.
On the other hand yesterday I spoke to my DS's teacher (he's 5). He's struggling, I've wondered about Dyslexia and/or Dyspraxia but no dx and I'd have to start down that path. It could also just be "normal" 5 year old boy stuff
Having had both things land on my lap within 24 hours I'm in turmoil. I could stay at home for longer, support my son or I could accept the job. I'm probably going back to work more because I want to than I need to (short term anyway). The job won't really wait - and its a bit of a timing fluke that something in my specialism came up in my old company at a time when I thought the kids were settled into school and its not really a PT thing (nature of the role). If I do I won't be around as much for my DS and if he continues to struggle I will feel guilty as all hell. But if I decline the role I know I'll lose some good feeling with the company - senior management have gone out of their way to help me get this opportunity and they would feel very let down. What happens if nothing else comes up? And of course lots of Working Mums support their kids though school - and often bigger challenges than this - so am I just being a bit precious.
I'm having so many conflicting thoughts so any views/comments welcomed