Back to work Wednesday what would happen if I just ran away?!

[JustMeAndMyBaby]

Feeling so crap just now for lots of reasons but I have to go back to work on Wednesday. Have been in pieces all night just at the thought. Help!

If you run away, you'll be up shit creek- jobless and presumably homeless before long!!

If you return, you'll have a few tough weeks getting Into the routine, but then you'll have the advantages of staying in the job market and being able to pay your way.

The thought is far worse than any reality. Your baby will be fine and so will you

I'm hysterical every time I even think about it is this normal? Or should I be worried?

Don't freak out about it. I guarantee that the reality will be a lot better than you are imaging. We've all been there and it's very normal to feel like this. I cried loads in the lead up to going back but it was so much better than i expected. By Friday, you'll be probably wondering why you were worrying in the first place. Is there something in particular that is worrying you? Eg child care, working hours etc? If you can resolve or even just acknowledge that you may feel a lot better before you even walk through the door. Try not to focus too much on the actual going to work bit, try focusing on what the job enables you to do - provide a secure home life, pay for days out, whatever fits. Think of it as simply a means to fund the things you want for you and your DC. It might not feel so daunting then.

Sorry, I'm not sure if any of this helps but i just wanted to wish you the very best of luck. You'll be fine. Let us know how you get on.

Well we both lived it was horrible cried the whole hour commute to work! now Just to get through tomorrow and the next day and the next day!!

Only just seen your thread. Hysterics absolutely normal - I had this with DD1. I returned on monday after having DD2, and it is awful isn't it. But I know it does get easier as you build trust and confidence in your childcare, and you start to get interested in the work you once loved before DC came along.

DD1 absolutely loves her mix of nursery and Grandma's house (lots of activities and spoiling!) and then I ensure I spend plenty of quality time at evening bedtime routine and at weekends. Baby (Grandma's only at the moment) is none the wiser (too young really) but clearly adores Grandma to bits.

Well done for getting through day one - that's the hardest one, it does get easier ime. Don't get me wrong though, you'll never shake off the working-mum guilt - we all have that!! But we're doing it for the good of our loved ones and sometimes our own sanity!. Chin up. Good luck with the rest of the week. Sending you big hugs.