I'm 13 weeks pregnant and came off my SSRIs at the start of the pregnancy. Bad bad, very bad idea and I'm back on them now, as of last week (unfortunately, they take a couple of weeks to kick in). But I've been really poorly with hyperemesis and general stress/depression/anxiety and have been messing up left right and centre. I've taken the day off; my GP is supposed to be ringing me back today and I am 99% sure the outcome is going to be that she is going to sign me off (and actually I should have asked for this a hell of a lot earlier).
But I am terrified of what happens now. I'm so behind on lots of things and have been too frightened to tell my line manager about it for fear of getting in trouble. Now it's all going to come out and people are going to find out what a crap job I've been doing. I feel like once I go back I'll be in more trouble than I started off in and that it would be easier to struggle on and try to manage. It feels like when I start back there'll be a witchhunt out for my blood.
Please help - I am going out of my mind here with panic. I feel like I'm back in the horrible place I was at the start of the year when I began my medication and had counselling and I don't want to be in that place or to be that person.
Someone please, please help me.