I've been offered a place on a very prestigious course. It's one year, full time, and my immediate response is " I can't, because of the kids." There are good reasons for me to immediately go to this position - I'm a single parent, and both of my kids have health issues, and I don't have relatives or friends who can help me out, and my ex husband is a workaholic who has never helped me out much and is unlikely to suddenly step up now.
However. I have wanted to do this course for 15 years. I applied on a whim this year. It's a course that could radically change my life, my prospects and my self esteem. The thought of doing it makes me skip around in glee.
However, again - it will involve me borrowing a lot of money - it will be EXHAUSTING - I won't see my excellent dds very much for a WHOLE year - I don't know WHAT I will do if one of them gets ill - I am already a witch from stress and fear.
HOWEVER again, doing this course could, if I get through it - make my life WORK in a meaningful way , which in turn would enhance my daughters. ANd stop me becoming a bitter, twisted witch.
Thoughts please?