I am not entirely sure what to do... my daughter is 15 months and when I was due to go back to work, I got made redundant. I subsequently cancelled her nursery place and was very happy to stay at home for longer. She was then supposed to start in nursery for three days a week from April but our settling in days were awful - hysterical crying and sobbing. It coincided with a separation anxiety phase so once again, we delayed the whole nursery thing. Now, although I like being home with her I feel that my value as a person has declined. Problem is though that there is very few part time jobs that pay enough and are not menial and boring. If I apply for full time roles I immediately get calls back but that brings me to the next point - how can I go back to work full time and put her into nursery?? Especially when she is likely to be ill a lot. I feel torn between wanting to do something with my brain and have some value, and wanting to make sure my baby is ok. I am also concious of the fact that the longer the gap in my cv, the harder it'll get and worried that if I did work how would I cope with the household chores, cooking etc.