anxious return to work

[niamh111]

ive told my employer im coming back to work, i finished my 39 weeks smp an im due back in april. however my son has a life threatening genetic condition that requires various drugs and treatements up until now that has been mainly my responsibilty, my fiance helps when he gets in from work. when my son was 18wk old he was admitted to hospital for a week. when i got home with him i counldnt shake off how down i felt. i have a great support network a wonderful family, my mum recommends i go see the doctor. she diagnosed postnatal depression and gave me pills, ive since had to up them under advice.my problem is ive already told my employer that im going back to work and ive since got worse, i no i can go off sick but i dont no what do do or say as im embarassed. please help. i thought getting out would help and goin to work but im terrified

I really feel for you, you have so much more than the usual return to work anxieties that other mums have. Have you thought about trying to do a phased return, so that you are doing just a couple of hours at a time as this may help to improve your confidence and reduce the anxiety about being away from your ds. Who will be looking after him when you are at work and how far away from your work will your DS be cared for?

Does your DS have a key care worker or could your HV help you to communicate with your employer perhaps? Do you think your employer will be sympathetic?

I wonder if otherwise maybe your mum or someone else could come with you to communicate to your employer that perhaps you could try reduced hours or that you won't be able to return just yet. I am sure your GP will be able to give you a 'fit note' to this effect.

Good luck xxx