Is anyone else going back to work soon after having a miscarriage/stillbirth?

[wannabump2006]

I'm really nervous right now as i'm about to go back to work at the end of the month after having a stillborn baby in may,and a miscarriage in september
I've had the worst 6 months of my life,but at the same time think it would do me good to get back to some kind of 'routine'.
The hardest thing is that i'm a nursery nurse,and work in the baby department of the nursery
I'm popping into work for a couple of hours this week and next,and then the following week i start back,part time tuesday to thursday.
Theres also a baby ther that is the same age as my stillborn would have been now,and i'm finding that really hard to deal with,i thought that it would be easier for me to go back to the job that i love and am good at,rather than looking for a completely new job and having to 'impress' in order to be employable.Right now i'm so up and down,and all the girls at work know whats happened and are so supportive that i feel i will be 'safe' there and can even have alittle cry if i want to!
Is there anyone else out there that is in a similar situation?Going back to work after a loss?I'd love to have a chat/share experiences?
thank u.x.x

Sorry, not in similar situation, but wanted to say good luck and take it one step at a time. Sorry if that sounded dumb.

Thank you spagblog:its much appreciated.x.x.x

wannabump2006, is there no chance at all that you could ask to work temporarily with older children at the nursery, or is that just not possible?
I so feel for you. I found going back to work incredibly hard, despite, like you, feeling the need for something to distract me from the emptiness. And I also had a supportive work environment where people were OK if I suddenly started to cry, or choked up.
You sound like you will not be too hard on yourself if you do find it difficult at first - quite right too.
Can I just ask, will the nursery management have made sure you will be safe from well-meant, kindly remarks from parents who might remember you going off to have your ds? At our old nursery, the staff were brilliant with me, and so thoughtful...and I was just a parent
Just wanted to wish you luck - it's good that you are able to phase it in at least. XXX

I could work with the older ones if i wanted to,i'm going to see how it goes and take it from there.Another reason i'm going back to the baby room is that i'll be working with my best friend as shes in ther too and has supported me through both my losses,its a quiet room and away from everyone(in a good way)so if i get really upset,not too many people have to see it.
The nursery has been really good,when i first had my loss they put a sign up for the parents to see and had a minute silence for me one day,which i thought was really nice.
I've seen a couple of the parents when i've been shopping and most of them have broke down crying infront of me and i've comforted THEM!?!(bizarre huh!?).
I'm just so sick with nerves because its like i have to go back to normal,like nothing has ever happened,and i'm gonna find that hard,i hadn't initally planned to go back after my ds aswell,so i had kind of put the place behind me in a way...theres just so many things going through my head!!.xAm emotional and confused.x

You sound like you work in an exceptionally nice nursery shelly XXX

Hello, i went back to work after both my m/c and although it was HARD it was a relief but for a strange reason.
I felt that i would go back, starting a new chapter, get on track to start a new chapter at trying to be a mum as well.
We started to try for a baby 3 months after my last M/C.

I looked to the day of re starting work as the day to restart life,always always sad at loosing my two babies BUT hopeful at the future from that day onwards.

I now have a gorgeous (but evil ) 2 year old.

It helped me, colleagues were great, it was the start of some thing new for me, not an opportunity to continue in my grief.
It sounds SO weird and quite hard faced doesnt it, but i truly felt that i couldnt possibly have another tear in me, i just had none left so......looked ahead.

Donbean-no,that doesn't sound hard faced atall,its a very brave decision to make and i think it keeps your mind so occupied that you get to feel 'normal' again,and focus on something other than your losses.
Do you mind me asking what you do?I just think its going to be hard in my case cos i work with babies and the fact that i've been through so much and have no baby of my own to show for it!
I'm hoping lke you to be able to open a new chapter in my life and look forward to what will happen in the future,but at the mo that is easier said than done.......x

Shelley - Don't know what to advise.... I'd find it incredibly diffifult just to function normally! You're being incredibly strong. And I will always keep and eye out for your post one day to say you've had a beautiful healthy baby.