Evening :) I'm looking for some views on this.
I signed up with a personal tutor agency a little while ago, under continued pressure from my mum 
and because we were so broke that I was willing to try pretty much anything. My mum wanted me to do it because she thinks I would be good at it (I have good academic qualifications), it pays well (on paper) and I could do it in my "free time" when DH could look after DD so wouldn't have to pay for childcare. I already work two (short) days a week but will hopefully increase them both in length and maybe going up to three days once DD is more settled at pre-school. The rest of the time I look after DD full-time. Oh, also pregnant and just coming out of the first trimester.
However, I didn't realise until I had my first few contacts through (though no actual clients yet) how much I really really don't want to do it. The whole thought of it just fills me with cold dread. Meh.
This aside, I also don't want to do it for the following reasons:
- pay is theoretically good (around £20 an hour) but I have to pay £5 a time to the agency and travel to and from students' houses (our house is being renovated and very much not visitor-ready, plus I think DH would have to get CRB checked if I taught here); allowing for this, pay works out at about £7 an hour (less petrol), which is what I get for my day job (though that is also less childcare, though my mum does some hours for free)
- timing is difficult. After doing DD's bedtime, I would struggle to be anywhere any earlier than 7.30-8ish and I suspect this is too late (?). I don't particularly want to do weekends because that's our only family time, plus we have house renovations to do.
- I am fucking knackered! DD has dropped her nap so I'm spending 12 hours a day entertaining/arguing with/distracting/consoling/cajoling a very cute but tiring toddler. Plus first trimester tiredness has set in (I spend most of the afternoon fighting to stay awake). The last thing I want to do right now is get back in my car and go out and teach a teenager.
Can you tell I don't want to do it? 
On the other hand, I think maybe doing something that challenges me would be good for me, plus I've gone to the effort of registering, which involved a few people doing references for me and getting CRB checked, which I had to pay for. And we do still need the money.
At the moment I'm wondering whether I can ask the agency to take my details down for a while and see if I perk up a bit once evenings are longer/I'm at the blooming stage but haven't explored whether they'd be happy to do this.
Yes, I am broadly looking for permission to do what I'm probably going to do anyway but I am also genuinely interested in any insights anyone might have.
Sorry it's so long, didn't want to leave anything out. Thank you for reading if you've got this far