Too scared to go back to work..

[Charleney]

I am currently on maternity leave at the minute as i lost my baby at Christmas.
Obviously i want to TTC again soon but i am too scared to go back to work incase they take it quite badly.
They werent happy when i told them i was pregnant before and have just made it really difficult for me to be paid SMP.
They told me i wasnt entitled to it but spoke to SMP department and they said i was so they have to pay me now..
..I dont know what to do :(
Anyone else been in a similar situation??

Hi Charleney

Not sure I'm much help but I didn't want to leave your post unanswered. I'm so very sorry for your loss.

You are entitled to take a further period of maternity leave for any future pregnancy, even if it runs right in to your current period of leave, although I believe you'll only get SMP if you have been earning above a certain amount during the months beforehand.

Regarding being too scared to go to work your employers have no right to make you feel like that, what makes you think they will take it badly? In what way did they let you know they weren't happy before? If this bad feeling is coming from your line manager, is their a senior manager or HR dept that you can share your concerns with?

Thankyou for replying to me.

Thats good to know, i wasnt sure what would happen with regards to that if i did fall pregnant again.

Well when i found out i was pregnant the first time i'd only actually been there a month, and my manager was shouting all kinds of obceneties about it in his office. After that i was always getting comments about who the babys father was, basically making out that i was a slag. It was bad.
Thing is that was my manager AND his manager.
HR havent been any better, they were the ones telling me they wouldnt pay me maternity, really tried to fight it but ive sorted that now anyway.

Feel a bit alone to be honest at work.