Don't say sorry! the way you expressed your love for your daughter just got to me.. it highlighted just how basic and profound a mother's love for her 'babies' is, regardless of their age..
And much love=much hurt.
I'm glad you're getting informed and helpful support from the Bayswater forum.
We're always here if you need to come back on and unload - I can't promise I won't cry again🙄, but there are usually other posters with sensible, informative and useful things to say as well as blubbering softies like me