I've been on a few weird voyages or journeys in my life. But the slam dunk strangest one is emerging into the cold clear air of reality as a teen in the 70s, after being a God fearing little boy, feeling pretty happy joining the new humanist, atheist group, proudly free speech, evidence searching, no more close minded belief structures, happy to always be arguing, in the company of like minded fellow truth seekers, putting aside childish attitudes and biases.
To find four decades later that this group I joined disappointingly wilted at the first pressure from a neo religion. Indeed, this group happy now to accommodate all the behaviours and traits they slated religious people for...sanctifying the Messiah/virgin birth (trans youth), having their gospels/ten commandments (protected speech and pronouns), even their heaven and hell (herd mentality purity spirals golden feelings of being social justice champions, and cancellation/no debate strictures, the modern day Spanish Inquisition).
I'll never do a 180 back to Christianity, but today I'll totally respect a Miriam Cates, Kemi Badenoch, Kate Forbes or Tim Faron, for being open and straightforward and unfiltered.
My humanist atheist group of choice of four decades. Too bad they moved from me. Now I'm open to Cates, an evangelical Christian, making me an offer.