This, from 'The Lonely Transexual!' is really worth reading. Obviously, he's taking some flak for 'oversharing', or being so open and honest.
General link: lonelyts.blog/
lonelyts.blog/2019/10/27/my-thoughts-on-gender-surgery/
'Sex dysmorphia used to be a very common part of transsexualism but not so with the modern ideology. Someone with sex dysmorphia hates their penis often to the point of self mutilation. It feels “wrong”. Personally I struggled with recurring infections because I had problems with personal hygiene. For years I planned self mutilation in hospital car parks. The very idea someone with sex dysmorphia would expose themselves in the way we see nowadays is often laughable. The modern ideology however says its ok to reject gender identity but still keep original equipment; often with pride.
It hurts me deeply to see people proudly boasting about “ladydick” and engaging in a fantasy lifestyle that combines a partial rejection of gender stereotypes with a testosterone fuelled sex drive. This is not the reality.'