I am drunk, but I feel if I don't post now, I might never.
Today, I find, in my darker hours, I still blame myself. Rationally I know this is stupid. I know I protested "enough" I know I fought (this time). And even if I NEVER HAD, this was still WRONG. SO, so very wrong. Why can't I get my head round that? At some level I still feel it's my fault.