Sexual assault counselling (I didn't know where to post sorry)

[fluffydressinggown]

I wasn't sure where I could post about this.

I am currently sectioned on a mental health ward. It has been suggested to me that I have counselling for a sexual assault when I was 16. I find it very very hard to talk about and even to accept that it wasn't my fault (i was very drunk and only remember bits so I wonder a lot if it even happened).

I just wondered if anyone has any advice about this. I have a long history of self harm and they say I have stress induced psychotic delusions.

I think they mean proper therapy. I currently do DBT (dialectical behavioural therapy) and when I am at home I see my CPN every 2-3 weeks and do compassionate mind therapy with her.

My key nurse suggested it, she said I need to deal with it to move on.

I can't live with what happened which is one of the reasons why I believe God wants me to kill myself.

no one should really be telling you therapy is what you need especially given the situation you are in but of course it can be helpful (maybe it was suggested) when the time is right and there are different approaches different clients have different needs

are you not seeing a psychiatrist? could you discuss it with him/her

No I can't discuss it with the psych, he is male and I don't know him so well. I find it difficult to talk about.

You certainly need to raise this with your psychiatrist, if that can happen through your nurse, then do that, rather than directly.
Use every tool currently at your disposal, therapy, drugs, a bed, sleep!
You are getting the right help, it will assist you.
And (as a committed atheist) if there is a god it's unlikely she wants you to die.

Is it possible to request a female psychiatrist?

I think you have to decide for yourself whether you want to talk about it or not.

I had cbt for my behaviors that resulted partly from being assaulted but also partly from other things, I talked about the other things but not the assault. I use the cbt techniques when it bothers me and I can feel it affecting my behavior.

Whatever happened - it wasn't your fault. If you were drunk you could not consent and they took advantage of you. No decent person would do that.

Fluffy - I hope you begin to feel more at peace soon.