I am glad that this law is being looked into. I got pregnant with a longterm boyfriend last year who completely turned on me, ended the relationship and refused to see/talk to me after we did the test. We're both 'educated' and 'successful' I am normally a strong willed and independent woman, but finding myself pregnant and traumatised in crisis, plus on the verge of eviction from my house due to a dodgy landlord, I found myself unable to think clearly about my pregnancy.
Initially I knew I wanted my baby and was happy, at 34 it was the right time for me in my life. But as my partner had left me and was scaring me sh*tless I found myself asking my GP for counselling. The only way I could access this was through an abortion clinic. I had to wait weeks forthis appointment and when I eventually went it was not counselling and within 5 minutes the 'counsellor' was asking me who would collect me after the procedure. I cried and said I hadnt gone there for a procedure but to help me make a decision. I was given NO advice on the support available to me if I was to continue with my pregnancy and in fact told that I was in a bad situation to have my baby. That was on the NHS. In retrospect this is when I should have walked away.
But I realised this was awful advice so asked to be referred to Marie Stopes who had telephone counselling available. I knew that I did not want an abortion, but was too scared and confused to accept I wanted to keep the baby. Again, no information was given on the support services available to me - and in the end I was advised to go to the clinic and 'see how I felt' on the day. This caused me great distress as I couldnt think straight at the clinic due to the high stress levels. I even called my GP and said I thought I was having a mental breakdown. My ex-partner at this stage was threatening legal action if I contacted him to discuss my pregnancy and accusing me of sleeping with other people. This was crazy.
Through lack of questioning I ended up waking up from an abortion and lost a child I loved and miss. It has destroyed my life and lives of those close to me. I can never get back my child and dont think I will ever get over this.
Counselling should most definitely be available to people outside of abortion clinics. Now I am starting to wake up from the nightmare I am horrified that I had to go to one of those clinics just to get support. I was then in the system and each time I backed out of abortion they just booked me another date to come back. This was even after numerous telephone counselling sessions where I remained ambivalent. Yet no-one asked me serious questions about what I wanted that day even though I hadnt been able to do it 3 times before and spoke about wanting to know my first child.
Lives are ruined, hearts broken... I have always been pro-choice but now I have been in that situation, as a vulnerable woman, I think women should be able to at least access counselling without having to go near an abortion clinic - be it NHS or private. Having to use a clinic for advice turned out to be the most dangerous thing I have ever done.
I needed to be told about housing options, childcare help, my rights in ensuring that the father of my child couldnt continue to abuse us. I needed to be told about the effects of Post Abortion Stress Syndrome, which many women suffer from even when they are clear about wanting an abortion. I have suffered from PASS for 5 months now and unable to sleep, work, function and my relationships are falling apart.
Something needs to be done to offer women like me who are in a crisis pregnancy, or just unsure of the best thing to do, the right support for the most important decision they will probably ever make in their lives.