Thankyou all for your experiences
What's scaring me was the last time there was a concern - early 2000's I saw my GP one day and was in clinic 48 hours later - and left with results
And that was a run of the mill - lets get it checked - referral
Im right now in two minds, we go on holiday for five nights on Thursday , do I go private and get seen on Wednesday and get all the tests and diagnoses, and then go on holiday free as a bird, or with the weight of what's to come - and the effect on DH , or hold off, go private when I come back, or just wait it all out?
Im not scared of the diagnosies being positive, that I can handle, What Im struggling with is this wait. It feels so cruel . I even said to the GP, come on, smile at least , but she couldn't. I cant fault the GP, I got through on the phone at 3:50, was phoned at 5pm and in and being seen @5;30 which I thought was great service seeing as here in NI the NHS has totally collapsed
Right now, the last few days, my mind is racing. soon as Im not busy, in creep the thoughts and worries