I read some older threads and although I’m sorry to read others suffering it is actually helpful to know I’m not the only one ruining my own life and my families lives for a week or so per month.
This seems to be getting worse as I get older. I have ADHD so suffer from emotional disregulation anyway but during this time it is just awful. I’ve ruined this lovely sunny weekend with my moods and rage and then that just makes me feel so down and the self hatred is so difficult.
I struggle to remember to take regular meditation though and my GP is very much aware of this so I feel like it’s almost pointless even trying to get help with this. I also struggle to stick to new routines like new ways of eating and exercise. So yea it just sounds like I don’t want to help myself really doesn’t it? But I do! I don’t want to feel this way.
Any insights? Thanks